Ngga tau harus marah ke siapa, share ke siapa saat sendiri, saat bener-bener ngga ada orang yang bisa ngerti hati kita.
Bener-bener butuh orang yang ada bersama gw untuk ndengerin semua, yah semuanya ! Apalagi saat aku ada di bawah seperti sekarang. Merindukan saat aku dulu di bawah dan dia ada setia menemaniku, selalu dengan kesetiaannya dengan keyakinannya dengan cintanya.
Hhhh . . . . . gosh, totally blank !
Lalu, saat cek email sore ini ada email dari seseorang yang selalu temenin gw, kasih support in her way. Inget kata-kata :
Jika kamu ingin melupakan orang dari masa lalu, carilah seseorang yang baru sekarang. Tapi yang jadi masalah sekarang adalah, susahnya mencari orang baru itu melebihi orang dari masa lalu itu. Atau hanya gw yang ngga mau melepaskan masa lalu gw !!
Dan terlalu jahat, kalo gw memperlakukan dia seperti itu. Tulus membantu dan support gw, tetapi pada kenyataannya, gw sendiri yang ngga mau berusaha. Hhh . . . .
Here's the e-mail :
When Things Fall Apart, Tell God How You Feel
by Rick Warren
“I am a man who has seen affliction, by the rod of his wrath. He has driven me away and made me walk in darkness rather than light; he has turned his hand against me again and again, all day long. He has made my skin grow old and broken my bones. He has surrounded me with bitterness and hardship. He has made me dwell in darkness like the dead. He has walled me in so I cannot escape; he has weighed me down with chains. Even when I call out or cry for help, he shuts out my prayer. He has barred my way with blocks of stone; he has made my paths crooked.” (Lamentations 3:1-10 NIV)
Jeremiah didn’t mince words. He told God exactly how he felt, and you know what? God is okay with that. He wants you to unload all your frustrations on him. Don’t unload them on your spouse, your kids, your boss or some online blog. Take it all to God, because he can handle it.
God can handle your anger, complaints and frustrations. He wants you to unload on him, because you need to get it all out. It’s cathartic. If you don’t, then here’s what will happen: As I like to say, “When I swallow my emotions and my anger, my stomach keeps score. When I swallow my fear and resentment, my back keeps score.” If you don’t talk things out, you’re going to take them out on your body.
So you need to get it out, and God can take whatever you’ve got. Go ahead, have a temper tantrum with him. God is your Heavenly Father and will still love you, just as a parent loves his or her child even when that child throws a fit.
You can’t see why God allows what he allows in your life, and God doesn’t owe you an explanation, because he’s God and you aren’t. But someday, and it might not be until you get to heaven, you’ll be able to look back and see the big plan. Until that day comes, keep taking your concerns to God.
Let me handle it alone, with no one !
I know that I can't lose her anymore, love her too much and I won't let her go !
Cause she's my purpose in this world, that's it . . . .
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